We ROCK

Well, things have been entirely too hectic for my liking the past couple weeks, but it was all worth it in the end. My mom and Jordyn  officially live in Starkville now. They live about ten minutes from my apartment, and I couldn't be happier. I don't know what I would have done without my kid. I feel like she's half mine.

Also, Bucky finally got a job! He's a server at the Pizza Hut here in Starkville. He's already completed his first day of training, and he finishes his training tomorrow. He'll be working nights and weekends. I'm so excited. I also got a job. I will be working at a new fast food place they are opening here, Bojangles. They're famous for their sweet tea, chicken, and biscuits. Basically, things are looking up. Jordyn starts her new school Thursday and her open house is Tuesday. We get to meet her teacher, tour her new school, meet her classmates, and drop off her school supplies. I really hope she has a good year. She had a really hard time last year with little girls being mean to her. I just pray a new school with get rid of all that.

Bucky is really excited about starting State. I really think this will be his year to excel. All the classes he is taking are things that he finds very interesting. I have never seen him this excited about his classes. I just pray that this will finally give him the motivation to reach his potential because he's a horribly smart guy.

Sometimes the simpliest answer is the best answer

I'm back! I've been running Jordyn back and forth to performances this weekend. She opened Thursday night, had a show Friday, two today, and she has her last one tomorrow. I got to actually watch the play all the way through this afternoon. Momma got Bucky, Brittany, and I tickets. Jordyn was so excited that Brittany came. We don't know have any family down here, so Jordyn didn't have swarms of people coming to the performances like other kids. Seeing her us light up today when she saw us in the audience made my day, and I know it made hers. She's such a sweet kid.

Lately I've been troubled. Dustin and I have been desperately trying to find jobs in Starkville to no avail. Every night before bed I've been feverishly praying for God to bless us with jobs. No matter how hard I prayed, the calls still didn't come. I realized that I've become angry and spiteful with God. I expected him to provide jobs for us simply because we've been putting in applications. Tonight, I read someone's blog, and I realized that God is probably angry with me as well. Here I am demanding he bless me, but what am I doing for him. Sure I pray every night and thank him for my family, friends, health, ect, but it's common place. I can't remember the last time I actually talked with God. I can't remember the last time I shared my love for him with someone. I've basically wondered off into some other dimension. I realized that I need to reconnect with God. I need to remember that he and I have an honest relationship where we can actually talk. I've been so robotic for so long. I feel shy in my attempts to reconnect, and I sometimes feel like I shouldn't bother him with my problems. There are people who have it so much worse than I do. Why should I bother him with trivialities. I'm kind of at a loss. I think I need to do some soul searching. Everything in my life is changing. I love the change, but at the same time it is scary. I just really think I need to find a quiet spot to meditate, cry, and connect with an old and faithful friend.

The Return!

Yes, bloggers I'm back!! Well, I'm back for today at least. I'm hogging my mom's Internet while I'm up here watching Jordyn. I've been running her back and forth to play practice. She's a hard knock life orphan in Annie Jr. She really likes it, and the play is coming along nicely. They open this Thursday!

Dustin and I are settling quite well into our new abode. I love it! Everything is where and the way I want it. Sadly, Dustin still has no job. He's put in applications pretty much everywhere, but no one has called him yet. I started putting in applications yesterday. I was going to wait since we only have one vehicle at the moment, but we're getting pretty desperate. Watch us both get called now. Lol.

Finally

We'll we finally moved into our apartment yesterday. It was a lot of work, but it was worth it. We haven't quite gotten everything unpacked yet, but I'm still uber excited. Brittany and my step-dad helped us get everything down there. Brittany even spent the night. I love her! The puppies were a little stressed, but they were better this morning. We have to take them outside on a leash, so that's always fun since they're used to being able to run around. We had to come back for Dustin to go to work and to bring Jordyn home, so we're just staying the night up here. I hate that I had to leave my babies alone after just one night in a strange place. I'm sure they'll be happy to see us Monday! We don't have Internet at our apartment yet, so my blogs will probably dwindle in number more so than they already have. Lol. I'll post pics next time though!

The end

Well today was the first day of finals, and I only had one, Spanish. I wasn't too stressed about it; I enjoy Spanish. I ended up with an A for the semester, so go me! I don't have any finals tomorrow, go me again! Monday I have chem. 2, and Tuesday I have animal science. That will officially end my time at Northeast. It's bittersweet. I'm ready to move on, but I will miss Northeast. I really have enjoyed my time there. I wrote a "Dear John" type break-up letter to Northeast for The Beacon. I post it here for your reading pleasure.

Dear Northeast,



These words have lain heavy on my heart for some time now. I know there is no easy way to say this. I know that I have given you some of the best years of your life and you mine, but sadly, I feel it is time for me to move on. Please do not cry. I could not bear to see it. I know this is hard for you. I have enjoyed our time together; truly, I have. It is not you; it is I. I have grown too big for this small Taco Bell-less town. I need someone who can satisfy my “fourth meal” cravings, and you just cannot do that for me. I will miss you. I truly will. I will take everything you have given me wherever I go. Henceforth, I shall always fear the almighty wrath of yellow parking spaces. Our memories are something no one can take away from us. I will always love you my dear Northeast, and I will never forget you.


Love always,


Lindsay Hill

On another note, I received a community college transfer scholarship to Mississippi State. It pays about half my tuition, and I'm very thankful for it. I'll be receiving financial aid as well, so I should be fine. I've felt very blessed here lately.

Blah

Well still nothing interesting has happened in my life. Lol. I've mainly been getting caught up on school work and getting ready for finals next week. I'm so ready for this semester to be over with. Dustin and I are going to our apartment this weekend. I'm going to clean it from top to bottom while he puts in some job applications. Hopefully he'll get a job quickly! We're moving in a little less than three weeks. I'm excited! The sad thing is, we haven't packed a thing yet!! We've got to get on that.

I'm also a little sad about moving because I'll be two hours away from my mommy. My mom and I are very close and right now, I can hop in my car and be at her house in no time. Hopefully, I'll get to see her a lot this summer. At least Jordyn will be with me every week. Since momma is working weekends now, Jordyn will be staying with me while she's at work. Since it's summer she can even stay longer. She's excited because she'll have her own room at our apartment. Lol. She asked if she could put pink carpet in it. I love that kid.